Poverty

Poverty
May 20 2011, 12 PM
In most American shows they picture poor families having lots of kids. For the first time my father's image looks like that to me! He had his first child when he was 25, and by the time he was 30 he had scored 5 kids! Though he was far from being and alcoholic or drug addict, his life resembles lives of those american poor dads. Somehow he managed to make a living as a teacher and later started his own groceries store. But his hard time as a child and later as a father had left its mark on him forever. Anger and fear are the most obvious indexes in his personality. His view of the world is this fucked up situation in which you would be lucky to be able to feed some mouths. He sees every new relation as a threat rather than an opportunity. And among all the possible ways of living, he sees teaching as a university professor the most stable career for me, and maybe his other kids too!
I'm a very very independent person, my opinions and beliefs are not acquired from any other one bur myself, yet still there's one common belief among me and my ancestors: we all think that we know everything that we need to know ourselves! My grandfather is like that, my father is like that, and so am I. So there isn't that much to communicate among us, if someone thinks sth is bad and the other one doesn't, there's no way they can come to terms. So no problems can be solved! And as the times pass, the gap widens.
I'm going to upload this post unedited and unrevised, so if ever anyone reads this note (including future me), well then this is an example of my flux of writing!